《Personality》

«Overview»

(Oceanpaw was her previous name! I'm too lazy to change it in the description :D )

~Tolerant~
Oceanpaw has had to tolerate a fairly extensive amount of trauma throughout her short life. Naturally, she has learned to counteract any immense feelings of sadness or anger with her tolerant and patient attitude. This is not to say she doesn't lose her temper, but instead means that she, for the most part, avoids confrontation with others; she's not so tolerant with herself, but we'll come to that in a bit. Although tolerant of most things, Oceanpaw can lose control over her emotions in situations where she is provoked, usually under the influence of aggression or violence. She's not afraid to stand up for herself when need be. But verbal disagreements and quarrels are easy for her to play-off or dismiss, a handy tool for someone who has had every kind of degrading insult thrown at her.
~Secretive~
Oceanpaw sees her business as her's and her's alone. Nobody is entitled to know anything regarding her past, or what her plans are for the future. These are sacred aspects of her life, and her right to keep her life private is something she holds onto dearly. She mainly keeps secrets as she's scared of facing judgment for them, but also because she sees her thoughts as her only place of truly free expression. She's not secretive about everything, in fact, it's almost solely to do with things regarding herself. When it comes to others and what she thinks of them, her opinion may as well be written across her forehead. She doesn't care if others know what she thinks of them, but what she thinks of herself is another matter entirely.
~Forthright~
Oceanpaw often forgets that her words have meaning, and that not every cat is as unbothered by mildly offensive comments as she is. She fails to put a filter on her words, even in times when she's delivering not-so-nice opinions and expressions. She forgets that words hurt, having conditioned her own mind to believe that words don't have any meaning at all; that insults are nothing but audible puffs of air. If Oceanpaw doesn't like you, she'll make it very clear.
~Observant, intelligent~
Oceanpaw, though she may not act like it all the time, is one clever she-cat. She has an understanding of the world around her unlike the majority of cats, and she's very attuned with her inquisitive side. She asks a lot of questions, even about things that are simply impossible to answer. She tends to pick up on details other cats would simply disregard, even the smallest of discoveries meaning a great deal to her. She loved exploration, discovery; it gave her a sense of purpose, even if only for small periods of time. Understanding the world around her is a luxury she enjoys with exceptional euphoria, and she'd more than willingly spent hours discussing her many strange theories about nature; why the sky is blue, why flowers are different colours, where rain comes from, and many more strange thoughts.
~Loyal~
Oceanpaw's loyalty is somewhat hard to define, as she is somewhat capricious when it comes to deciding where her loyalties truly lie. She doesn't believe in Fallenstar as a leader; loyalty to a figure of power whom she barely knows is imbecilic in her opinion. She entrusts her loyalty to those who prove their ethicality to her - she is a believer in justice, equity, and fairness, so her loyalty only lies within those of similar beliefs. It takes her a long time to trust someone enough to dub herself "loyal" to them, but when she does its a bond very rarely severed. Loyalty is a term she does not use lightly, as its a value she upholds to the highest degree. Loyalty is a willingness to die for someone, to risk everything she has to save them. Likewise, being loyal to a cause invokes the same sense of entitlement as aforementioned.
~Anxious~
It's easy to understand why Oceanpaw suffers from anxiety; the brutality of her past an easy explanation as to why she is pained with panic attacks and anxiety attacks almost daily. She has almost learnt to accept them as apart of her life, as though it would be easier to suffer than to go see someone who could help her come to terms with her anxiety. She worries about nearly everything in life, and although she can somethings off as unimportant or stupid, the majority of the time she allows them to swirl around her head like poison. In her eyes, her anxiety is just another product of her weak kittypet blood; she's not mentally ill, she's pathetic. This is the main reason she has yet to tell anyone, fearful of what they would think of her.
~Determined, persistent~
Once Oceanpaw has her heart or mind set on completing a specific task, she will not give up until she's reached a satisfactory result. This can be either a negative or a positive aspect of her character, depending on how you look at it; she doesn't give up on a task until completion, but on the other hand, she's also stubborn when it comes to giving up on things that may impair her safety or health. But her persistence makes her a hard-worker, and being on task at all times is a value she views as immensely important.

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«Mental Age»

33 moons

«Mental health»

She suffers from anxiety

«Phobias»

~Bees

~Heights

«Sociability»

6/10

«Outlook»

Cynical or realistic

«Responsibility»

8/10

«Cleanliness»

7/10

«Generosity»

4/10

«Manners»

5.5/10

«Bravery»

7.5/10

«More Logical or More Emotional?»

Logical

«Favorite Season»

Spring

«Favorite Food(s)»

Trout

«Favorite Word»

"Sunflower"

«Favorite Sound»

The ambience of the forest in Summer

«Greatest Hope»

To find peace and get over her past

«Greatest Strength»

Her determination and emotional strength

«Greatest Weakness»

Her inability to talk about how she feels

«Worst Nightmare»

Being abandoned again

«Deepest Darkest Secret»

Her abusive kittypet past

«Most Treasured Memory»

Seeing the rain for the very first time

«Quirk(s)»

~She loves collecting things; seashells, trinkets, pretty leaves, you name it! She keeps them hidden in her nest and cherishes them. 

~She loves flowers! They make her feel like a kit again, so she always takes time out of her day to admire wildflowers growing in the RC territory.